Wednesday, January 14, 2009

First Rule of Break up

I did say I have never done this before…nobody warned me the first rule of break up which is don’t see him…

Well he came to my office last week fri after 2 hours of pulling the right strings (he sure knows the right strings to pull after all its been five years) my heart had to melt…

I feel weak like I cant take a decision and stand by it…

I however take solace in the fact that he was really shaken and believed I was really and truly ready to move on

But between me and you, he is on probation…..any hint of insecurity I would just start dating somebody else..maybe that’s the only way I will be able to move on.

Well so far he has been on his best behavior…I haven’t driven this week…he gets to my house 5.30am to pick me up…drops me at work and takes me back home (he says he will do this for this whole week)…he has really been amazing…but am skeptical as to how long “ this amazing behavior will last” will last

Anyways I will keep u guys posted

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Am about to break up with my boyfriend….

I still love him and I know for sure he still loves me

I have never had to do this before cuz he is/was my first boyfriend

We have been together for 5 yrs

Thing is I earn significantly more than him…(It doesn’t matter to me tho) but to the male ego Its crazy…I have tried to manage the situation…really really tried but there are complex and insecurity issues I feel I cant deal with this new year…

Its beginning to feel like he doesn’t wish me well cuz of his state

I am worried….and sad……..but it feels like its time to move on…before luv turns to hate