Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Open letter to the EX

Dear You,

It is with great joy in my heart and overwhelming gratitude to God that I write you this letter.

I am so happy because I am whole again, my heart is healed and I am OVER YOU. It is amazing because only last month (June), I was scared that it will never happen. Time does heal every wound for real and morning definitely comes after every night. God is indeed awesome.

Looking back to how much I suffered from January to June, how I wept, wished, prayed, hoped and all I just sigh. However, I forgive myself for all those unnecessary and wasted emotions because you were everything that love represented in my life plus it just felt so right. So right that I dint give margin for error, I dint hedge for uncertainty, I guess that is what made it harder to deal with.

I don’t know the exact day I got over you, I just realized sometime towards the end of June, that I had gone an entire week plus without thinking about you at all, and I had been happy for a while without knowing it, depression, discouragement, disappointment were suddenly foreign to me (tres amazing considering how they had been my companion for the first half of the year).

Am so grateful for everything July has been to me. It has been an amazing way to start the 2nd half of the year and if it is any indication, 2010 is gonna end as a blast for me.
Thanks for your call yesterday, thanks for the invite to see your new house, am sure it is great and beautiful but I’l pass, thanks for missing me, I kinda don’t miss you at all, sorry. Thanks for praying for me, may heavens answer (Amen). I wish you the very best in life.

P.S thanks all for your well wishes, prayers and comments and on my last post, when I said I wanted this relationship to be shorter than the 6 years of my first relationship, I wasn’t being pessimistic, I actually meant the dating process, una no want make I marry? LOL

Monday, July 5, 2010

New Relationship???

So after 6 months of hanging out and stuff, i am thinking it is time ND and I become a “couple” officially....hopefully this relationship will be shorter than the 6 years of my first relationship....

So this is the point that you wish me luck...

Happy July.

Friday, July 2, 2010

"Free therapy- Honesty Meme"

So i was tagged by sting to do here goes nothing really:

1. Right now i'm feeling....beautiful…braided my hair with black extensions for the first time (i used to feel i was too light complexioned to do this) and i'v been getting compliments everywhere. LOL.

2. When i'm alone i feel....lonely, which is really annoying cuz you see, I used to be this girl that could stay by herself and read novels and watch series all week long….when did this change?

3. When i'm surrounded by people i feel.....crowded; if they are not people I particularly care about, but when surrounded by my people feel happy or indifferent really..depends on my mood I guess.

4. One thing i hate is...pretense

5. One thing i really like about myself is heart, I think I have a big, forgiving and accommodating heart…I am literally unable to hold a grudge…that’s me

6. When i'm feeling sad I...... just cry my heart…its so therapeutic

7. When i daydream it's usually about.......perfect, faultless love. lol

8. I'm afraid of.....not attaining destiny / living a purposeless life

9. I'm happiest when......things go the way I envision

10. One thing that really worries me is .... making the wrong choices for very crucial issues

11. If i could change one thing about myself it would dentition

12. If i could be with anyone right now I would be with.... “thinking”

13. The family member i am closest to younger brother

14. If i was really honest with my father I would tell him....I love him and I wish him long life to walk me down the aisle and see my children

15. One thing i regret about my life is ......i don’t do regrets

16. If i only had one more day to live I would......pray and ensure am right with God so that I can spend eternity in heaven

17. If i was really honest with my mother i would tell her.....I luv her, I appreciate her sacrifices and I hope I make much more money quick to give her the life she truly deserves

18. One thing about me that nobody knows ability to forsee the future …or at least some events in the future…its scary to me…so I don’t share with anybody

19. I hope that someday in the future.....I will make heaven

20. When i think about my family I feel.....loved, lucky and blessed,

21. Something i'm really embarrassed about love or need for attention (restricted to the boyfriend though)

22. One thing about me i never want to change ability to forgive anything and everything….its truly amazing

23. One thing i feel really proud of intelligence and determination.

24. Blogsville has helped me to.....vent anonymously

25. One thing i like about blogsville is...... a family.