We are officially a break now

I asked for a break…. Our anniversary is in 2 weeks….14^th of April to be precise…

I need to sort my head out….do I still want this…..can I spend the rest of my life with him….

I need to pray…..maybe should fast….

I cant get over the heart-wrenching way he sounded on the phone…he seemed so broken…so….he just couldn’t understand what I need a break for…maybe cuz I couldn’t explain it as well….in his opinion things couldn’t be better….

But then a man that cannot give a girl a 2 week break from a straight non stop 5 year relationship…is he in luv with her or obsessed with her???

I hate being the cause of someone’s pain

I cant concentrate at work…

Its beginning to feel like cheating

There is this guy “E” – used to be my friend…well still is my friend..but we’v taken it a notch higher…we talk on phone like 4 times daily and the night conversations are quite long…

We see every weekend (not my fault tho..we take weekend classes at the same place..that is how we met)

I find myself looking forward to these chats

He is single

He is intelligent

He is matured

He is a good xtian

He is nice and caring

He doesn’t know I have a boyfriend

He is not asking me out

But he fancies me (I think)

I feel like am cheating but am not am I?

The four Meme

FOUR JOBS YOU'VE HAD IN YOUR LIFE
1. Unfortunately or should I say fortunately (am not sure which) am still at my first job - consultant


FOUR FICTIONAL JOBS YOU WISH YOU HAD
1. President of Nigeria.
2.Editor, Mills and Boons
3. Beyonce’s wardrope designer
4. MD Hilton worldwide



FOUR CITIES YOU'VE LIVED IN
1. Lagos
2. Kaduna
3.Osun
4. London

FOUR TV SHOWS YOU LOVE TO WATCH
1. One tree Hill
2. Prison Break
3. 24
4. Lost

FOUR PLACES YOU'VE BEEN ON VACATION/TRAVELED TO (I WISH)
1. London
2. Dubai
3. South Africa
4. America(I WISH)

FOUR WEBSITES YOU VISIT DAILY
1. Bloggs Ville
2.Google
3. Facebook
4. Yahoo

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS
1. Chicken
2. Pepper Soup
3.Rice
4. Chips

FOUR THINGS YOU WON'T EAT
1. Cereals of any kind
2. Swallow food of any kind
3. Un-cooked onions
4. Water melon

FOUR THINGS YOU WISH YOU COULD EAT OR DRINK RIGHT NOW
1. Chicken
2. Rice and dodo
3. Nkwobi
4. Diet coke

FOUR THINGS IN YOUR BEDROOM
1. Bed
2. Novels
3. Clothes
4. Shoes

FOUR THINGS YOU WISH YOU HAD IN YOUR BEDROOM
1. A carton of novels I haven’t read
2. A pile of series I haven’t washed
3. Book Shelves
4. More space.

FOUR THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. A black (very sexy) bra
2. Matching thongs
3. Brown pants
4. Pink shirt

FOUR PLACES I'D RATHER BE RIGHT NOW
1. Dubai (shopping)
2. Paris (on vacation)
3. At home watching a series
4. In bed reading a novel


FOUR FICTIONAL PLACES I'D RATHER BE RIGHT NOW
1. In Wonderland with Alice.
2.In prison with Scofield
3. Lost on the magical island with Jack
4.White house with Obama


FOUR THINGS YOU ARE THINKING RIGHT NOW
1. Its Thursday almost a weekend
2. If only I dint have to go to classes this weekend I’d have gone clubbing tomorrrow
3. Am I making the most of my youth?
4. Damn! Haven’t read bible today

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE THINGS
1. Novels
2. Clothes
3. Cars
4. Shoes

FOUR THINGS YOU DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME
1. I cry when reading novel or watching films
2. I react to nickel in jewellery (hence I wear only Gold)
3. I am greatly discomforted when flying
4. I am afraid to sleep alone in a big house

FOUR PEOPLE YOU TAG
1. You
2. You
3.You
4. And You

Help

They say an elder does not learn to use left hand in his old age…yea whateva that means. I need help trying to stop some bad habits such as

Being scattered (My mum says no man would put up with this) – am not dirty (cant stand dirt) but am scattered. My wardrobe is upside down, even when I fold them stuff..i always upturn everything when am looking for what to wear

My room is disorganized, I have books, shoes, stuff generally…everywhere

Even my car booth is disorganized

Also I need help with nail biting – cant seem to beat this

Impatience – this is not even a habit….its a terrible vice

Being undecided – or should I say finding it hard to make decisions and sticking by them. Especially when it has to do with change